what do you do when the only thing you can think of is how the world would be better without you?
i feel like crap so much that i never know what to do… i never know if i am being annoying or if i just am thinking that. i cant stop thinking that i am just annoying her. i dont see why anyone would ever like a guy like me. i am to quite and to shy, or when i try not to be i get annoying and i act stupid. i am just an annoying ass
why does it have to hurt so much?
sometimes i wonder why i dont have many friends… but someone is always kind enough to remind me… :( i hate my life. how am i supposed to look on the bright side of life with a bag over my head?
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i cant really think of any bright side :(
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maybe this one counts? on the bright side i dont have to worry to much about being busy on the weekends when my parents need help with stuff
girls complain about boys breaking their hearts… what about ours?
im sick of all the crap that comes with former relationships. :(
i wish i could help my friends. i feel so useless
When you live with something for so long sometimes you begin to think its the way that it should be. That it could never be better because you are so happy. But once its over you can see how you were never really happy. you were just being used and abused. no ones life is long enough to spend even a week in a relationship like that, yet everyone at some point gets into one and some are so unlucky as to never get out and live their lives out in misery from the mental which leads to physical abuse of the one they think love them, but really they only like the control they have over the helpless victim who started out as their love.
why does it seem like the closer people get to me the farther away they get
why cant i help the people i want to? :( why cant people see things as they are? why do they have to hurt themselves :( why cant they see the things that are hurting them and leave them behind…
Companies try to sell happiness with their endless supply of new products. If they could sell happiness they would already be sold out.
tracing it back to what lead me to the trap which has now left me stranded
I want to just go away from here forever because i cant trust anyone anymore. i cant trust anyone anymore because she hurt me so many times. she hurt me so many times because i put my heart into it every time she would come back. i put my heart into it every time she came back because i loved her. i loved her because she made me happy for glimpses of time when she would say she loved me. she said she loved me because i was the only one left. i was the only one left because i could never leave her like that. i could never leave her like that because she kept tricking me into thinking i was special and a good person. she kept tricking me because she new me and thats what she does. she knew me because i talked to her in class. i took that class because i wanted to look smarter and be respected by others. i wanted to be respected by others because i was always rejected by those i looked up to. i was always rejected by the people i looked up to because i couldn’t talk to them. i couldn’t talk to them because they would never talk to me. they wouldn’t talk to me because no one else did.
now I’m not alone anymore but i feel more alone than i ever have because i shot for the stars and was shot down. so i fell into a crevice with everyone else looking down at me and no ladder to get back up. i wish someone could help. i wish i would have just talked to them to start with so none of this would have happened
copied…
hes a little scared to get close to anyone cause everyone that said, “i’ll always be here for you,” left.
